Okay. It’s been 5 weeks + 4 days post op. I’ll be honest. I was enjoying waking up at 5:30am instead of 4:30am every morning to get my runs/exercises in. But at the same time, I’ve been going crazy because I feel like I’m missing out on something.
We’ve started the walk/jog a little bit since last Saturday but yesterday, I was pretty down. Plus the rain didn’t help when we set out for our PM walk with Harvey.
I know this year isn’t my year (it’s yakudoshi for me- 33 years old, female. We usually have these yakudoshi the year before, the actual year, and the year after) so I know things haven’t been working out for me. The more I try to go forward with something, I feel like I am going backwards.
Just a few days ago, I got that really good blow. It was like a kick in the guts kind of feeling and it really brought me down.
I never imagined myself having a surgery, having 2 (almost 3) DNS races, taking 6 weeks off from running, and just getting negative results one after another.
I have to look on the positive side.
Mr. B has been super supportive, and without him, I know I would have fallen hard(er).
The kids have been super duper sweet, showering with their love and cuteness.
Harvey….. well, he’s just a pup. All he does is create mess and work for us but he does have those cute moments. And boy, can he run. When we went for the walk/jog, he ran along us and all of a sudden, as if someone turned on his turbo switch, he just went super fast. I’m glad I wasn’t holding the leash when it happened cuz he would’ve dragged me.
This morning, I finally did my yoga. My everlasting yoga pants from Lululemon- probably like 14 years ago?! As well as my first yoga mat that is just lasting forever. This one isn’t a Lulu mat but its been with me from Japan–WA–HI–Japan again–HI again.
It was refreshing and it allowed me to organize my thoughts and feelings. I truly enjoyed the lion pose-
Deep breathe in- deep breathe out with force. Trying to get rid of the negativity inside of me.
I must have sat in a wrong way last night when I was organizing the kids’ books cuz my knee felt a little “off”.
I am hoping (really really hoping) that I can go for my celebratory run this Saturday- marking my 6 weeks post op 🙂
It will probably be a very short slow run, but that’s ok. I’m going to just enjoy these shorter runs for now. Until I find that one small short race in the near future, I will just run for pleasure.